Moving Again and Random Update-y Thoughts

As I refine what I'm looking for here in Seattle, I'm preparing to move yet again. This time to a "mini-ashram", a house of an acquaintance whom I've always felt drawn to. She's well steeped in Eastern mysticism and her house looks and feels like a pocket of India. I think living immersed in that energy will go a long way toward evening out the peaks and valleys I've been experiencing lately.

I'm writing this at 2:30am, sitting cross-legged on a pallet I just made on the floor. I seem to be on India time lately and not sleeping at night. I was tossing and turning and had a sudden craving to sleep on the floor tonight. It feels better down here, for some reason.

There's no denying there have been fundamental changes in me since my journey. The layers upon layers of minutiae that are necessary to function in the West are piling on and my soul is crying out when it gets too smothered. Being open to the balancing act and ebb and flow is quite an interesting journey in itself.

I'm noticing deep changes in the way I move within groups of people in social situations. Situations that previously would have had me in my head, engaged in internal dialog around fitting in, are now effortless and fun and I'm totally relaxed and confident. I perceive no risk whatsoever, when before I would have been very constrained. It's fascinating to observe and quite gratifying.

I'm feeling totally in the flow again and have manifested my desires powerfully over the last few days. It's good to note that Tiruvannamalai isn't the only place where I can do that. Work projects are flowing to me and I'm feeling confident and capable. I sense that my plans to return to India for longer periods of time are sound and will happen. I also foresee adventures in various places in North, Central and South America as well as Europe.

I got a valuable lesson in manifestation last week. When fear is what I'm focusing on, that is what is manifested. The Universe is impartial, it doesn't give a rip what we ask for, it just delivers. I dished up a heaping helping of fear and misery last week and thankfully, with the support of highly conscious friends, turned it around quickly. Good lesson, that was.

I see a new paradigm forming in the new economy and I like it. I see people engaging in practices that feed them, while simultaneously teaching others how to do it and getting paid for it. That's a win/win if I ever saw one and that's the model that my business endeavours in healing and teaching will follow.

Speaking of which, I'm getting lots of clarity on expanding into healing and teaching. A big part of that will be writing at least one book, perhaps more. I love the web development and it will pay the bills while I expand into the other areas. In all aspects of my livelihood, I wish to be of service to all beings in all realms. I'm receiving feedback from people around the globe about being a positive influence in their lives and it's the first time I've seen and embraced this side of myself. I'm great at being a student, but it's just one part of me and embracing both student and teaching selves feels more balanced.

I feel like what's going on with the economy is just an outward reflection of what's going on inside me and with my life. The things that aren't sustainable are falling away and allowing space for new, collaborative things to be created. It's an exciting time to be alive!