I was on my way to my New Thought Roots class one Monday night just before I moved a few weeks ago. I was picking up boxes off of Freecycle in the U District and looked at my watch as I was stuffing them in my back seat at 6:13. I started to drive to class and realized I was very hungry. I thought, "Oh well, I'll just be hungry, I need to be at class by 6:30 and I'm already going to be late". Something inside me went "NO". So, I decided I had all the time I needed and was not going to rush and I would get something to eat. I drove over to Wallingford, got two Dick's Deluxe burgers and a milkshake, ate them while driving and was parallel parking in Madison Valley at 6:28. I told the class during my check-in that opening portals was my new super power. They were amazed and asked me how I did all that in that time frame. I just said, "I knew I could, so I did."
More recently, I was sitting in a White Tantric meditation at Summer Solstice and had to hold postures and mudras and chant for 62 minutes. When I treated each iteration of the chant as the only moment in time, time opened up and I was aware of the effortless eternity of "now". I never thought I could sit for 62 minutes without moving, but I did and it was so powerful! Whole days seemed like minutes. The same thing happened that allowed me to drive for 12 and 13 hours a day.
After Solstice, I went to the Neem Karoli Baba Ashram in Taos. My last morning there, I led a mala of Gayatri while playing my harmonium in the Hanuman Temple. I sank into the "now" of it and all of a sudden, I was back on the ghats in Rishikesh on my 2nd River of Sound tour with Ginaji. We were in a state of ecstasy and she tackled me in the river and we both came up to the surface giggling and whooping. It wasn't a memory, I was *there*. I then went to Varanassi and revisited events there, to Tiruvannamalai and also visited myself and family back in Richmond in the mid '80's.
Judge Thomas Troward, a founder of New Thought, says that the totality of eternity is available in every second and in every point in space. I think that's why these portals show up when I'm focused on the present moment. Time does exist there, ALL of time and All of space. That's where everything is possible. Deepak Chopra talks about it a lot, I think he calls it the causal realm, but I'm not sure.
Friday, July 2, 2010
Surface and Depth
I feel like I've been posting a lot of fluff lately in my facebook status updates, which isn't my norm. I've had profound shifts on this trip that have shaken the bedrock of my existence, but I can't post about them yet. It feels weird to post fluff when a gaping chasm larger than the Grand Canyon has opened up in my consciousness and I'm dancing on a sheen of apparent reality at the surface, kind of like the surface of rainbow coloured soap bubbles.
I did manage to post a detailed answer to a question of Kimberly Ross's about time portals that I'm going to post as a stand alone blog post, because it's something I've been wanting to say and couldn't. At least the ability to answer questions is still intact, lol. I suspect I still need to integrate a lot and I have a strong need to be quiet. It's so good that I'm in a safe, loving environment with little to no responsibilities to process all this.
I feel intoxicated all the time, but the degree varies. Sometimes I feel so saturated in Love that I feel like my physical body may dissolve into it at any moment. My vision is blurry and my brain is not functioning in a linear manner. I feel like I need adult supervision when I leave the house. Just ask my daughter *grin* How does one lose their phone while pumping gas? I wasn't even using it! I'm on the Internet on my laptop for the first time in weeks (for a laptop junkie, that's saying a lot!) and it's the first time I've been able to even think about processing and uploading pix. Nothing technical appeals. After Kundalini yesterday, the intoxication sensation increased dramatically. I could barely key in the code for the Washington cherries I was buying at the self checkout. I was wandering around the store in a daze. It's a nice daze, but geez!
I don't know when or even if I'll be posting about the deeper stuff. I have no way of knowing. My inner guidance says to be it instead of talk about it. I've been getting the message about "actions speak louder than words" for a few months now and this takes it to a whole new level. It's all good, either way. I'm doing Kundalini meditation and singing and playing my harmonium every day and taking life as it comes with my daughter. At this point, it's all I have room for and it's enough. At least I got it together enough to post this and that feels good. So, for those of you who have asked me to keep you posted on my inner journey, there you have it. Whether or not there's more to come remains to be seen. Peace, out.
Me and Hari Singh, my newest ~Angel~. I am so grateful to have an entire flock of Divine beings, loving and guiding me along my path.
I did manage to post a detailed answer to a question of Kimberly Ross's about time portals that I'm going to post as a stand alone blog post, because it's something I've been wanting to say and couldn't. At least the ability to answer questions is still intact, lol. I suspect I still need to integrate a lot and I have a strong need to be quiet. It's so good that I'm in a safe, loving environment with little to no responsibilities to process all this.
I feel intoxicated all the time, but the degree varies. Sometimes I feel so saturated in Love that I feel like my physical body may dissolve into it at any moment. My vision is blurry and my brain is not functioning in a linear manner. I feel like I need adult supervision when I leave the house. Just ask my daughter *grin* How does one lose their phone while pumping gas? I wasn't even using it! I'm on the Internet on my laptop for the first time in weeks (for a laptop junkie, that's saying a lot!) and it's the first time I've been able to even think about processing and uploading pix. Nothing technical appeals. After Kundalini yesterday, the intoxication sensation increased dramatically. I could barely key in the code for the Washington cherries I was buying at the self checkout. I was wandering around the store in a daze. It's a nice daze, but geez!
I don't know when or even if I'll be posting about the deeper stuff. I have no way of knowing. My inner guidance says to be it instead of talk about it. I've been getting the message about "actions speak louder than words" for a few months now and this takes it to a whole new level. It's all good, either way. I'm doing Kundalini meditation and singing and playing my harmonium every day and taking life as it comes with my daughter. At this point, it's all I have room for and it's enough. At least I got it together enough to post this and that feels good. So, for those of you who have asked me to keep you posted on my inner journey, there you have it. Whether or not there's more to come remains to be seen. Peace, out.
Me and Hari Singh, my newest ~Angel~. I am so grateful to have an entire flock of Divine beings, loving and guiding me along my path.
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